You're bitch
You're innocent

You're vengeful
You're peaceful

You like making things difficult
You're understanding ( at least trying to)
When at the end of the day , you'd just want everything to be fine

You're a nuisance
You're vulgar, rude.
You're quiet ( so that you'd not accidentally spew vulgarities)

You're unwanted
You're wanted

Ha, it doesnt matter.
You're the one hurt.


Suddenly, my mind started to function ( properly) through its 4am now. Just thought of the many changes that I'd wanna make. Sigh, one step at a time girl :)

I just realized how much one's decision can influence another  person's decision. Suddenly I dont feel like doing what Im suppose to do. I dont know if its just this temporary feeling. Nah, dont consider the injuries im having now. Besides that,  I guess another reason, or perhaps excuse is the people there. Dont feel belonged, dont feel loved. I very much want to make use of this week as for the next 2 weeks I wont be able to dance due to my overseas trip. Sigh, it was just a sudden emotion that hit me. Question is , "will it stay in me for long?" . Oh man, the heavy load effect is acting upon my heart. I very much want to go home and just chill out and think in silence.

Once, I saw us. Coming to together. And training together as one. But all I see now,  is us falling apart ):

What I had to say, I have said it all.
Its your choice if you wanna accept it
Running away, avoiding was never the solution
Because the problem will catch up with you soon before you know it.

Im still uncertain about your decisions
Im not expecting an immediate change
But I would at least like to see some effort, at least.

I cant bring myself to expect something, anticipate something
Because I dont want my hopes to be dragged down.

Sigh Weiling, time to sleep.
Time to not bother anymore?
I dont know, But for now, i'd just leave it as it is.
Your choice to decide what you should do.

You're not a kid, you're not a robot.

I had an awesome time at marina barage , an awesome time playing L4D2, an awesome dinner , an awesome night walk. (:(:

Reality hit me hard on the ground. & I dont know where to look.
Demoralized once again. Is all my hard work and effort worth only this bit?

You promised You'd provide
And I am holding on to that
I just wanna see Your power come through
So there's no way I can deny Your glory.

I am praying for a miracle here